Archive | April, 2010

the everybody’s and the non-everybody’s

30 Apr

Today my emptiness spiralled to an intense hight. Our country had one of the most celebrated public holidays, and the images of happiness, togetherness and cheerfulness that I had to see on the television screen (not even in real life) extended the void of lonely emptiness inside.

My partner, who is unable to hear my adventures and miseries, voiced his opinion about the world. Me, responding in order to voice my ideas, was not able to reach his attention.

I am surrounded by goods, no people are my friends…

My imaginations were, indeed as I knew myself, never to be real. My falling-in-love was a temporarily numbifying tool against the pain of loneliness, only afterwards to feel lonelier than ever.

I am lonely, and lonely is my friend…


Queen Bee

29 Apr

Ode to the Queen Bee:

I admire her…the social queen with all her girlfriends. A un-cheerleaderlike queen bee always branching out her group of girls. Girls who will accept a lot, tweak their appearance to please her. I am the lonely critter, unlike the queen bee and the other bee girls, and will not hinder her.

She is not the typical queen bee, still, she is a queen bee in her form. I will not even come close to the popularity of her. Indeed, her coolness is something that is hers.

Queen bee, I wish you luck…I am not a bee and I cannot serve you. I am the butterfly, who passed you and twirled around you for a while. My wings will never be like your subjects, queen bee.

 Thus I will fly away and thank you for your tolerance of my otherness…

Queen bee, be(e) good to your subjects…

dictator, female?

10 Apr

East Timor’s First Female Dictator Hailed As Step Forward For Women

After watching this video, I have a few sidenotes.

First, it is hilarious that it enforces an American ideal of femininity….For example “she burned down the whole area with a torch and still looked good in it” is enforcing women to be able to do whatever they want, as long as they ‘look good in it’ they can be seen sympathetic and female. The torture of the man is a pleasure when it is done by a ‘real woman’ like the dictator.

The fact that there is a ‘female’ dictator is something that is a remarkable difference, according to the video, as women are normally not related to violence, let alone be so succesful in violence that they become the leader of a whole country. And, seeing the title of the video, it is seen as a ‘step forward to women’, claiming the display of violence is actually a positive trait to have?

Oh, and femininity is always related to motherhood, how cruel the person is. As long as she is toting along some children (of her own) and combines her career with motherhood, she is the ultimate (Western) woman.

Oh, and the event takes place in a ‘far-and-away’ country, enhancing exoticism of the nature of dictatorship.

Korean depiction of the tomboy

8 Apr

I found this video as it was a project of  a Korean blogger named Clara.

I was spellbounded by the depiction of the Korean tomboy and the efforts made of making her ‘prettier’ and ‘girlier’. She already claims that she is pretty (around 4 minutes) but her friend claims that product X will make her more pretty, which a thing that she should do for ‘love’.

 The words ‘change for love’ are mentioned by her friend, which is a theme often used in the rhetoric of romantic fairytales, films, etc. And change is, ofcourse, physical change…’becoming pretty’.

In a way, it makes me sad to see that kind of consumerism (something I myself are quite vunerable of) being shut down to the throat. However, on the plus side, she will end up with the boy who already thought she was cute as the way she was before, an active and cute tomboy.

Although I am aware of the overromantic Cinderella-esque plot which asserts that a woman can only be rewarded with ‘love’ and being found ‘pretty’ by a man, I do like the fact that her tomboy self is being appreciated, and the ‘girly’ persona she tries to be is not rewarded with a ‘knight in shining armour’.

And, I really like the video of the blogger…quite quirky, although sometimes a bit confusing.

Feminism and Buddhism for Transformation

3 Apr

Feminism and Buddhism for Transformation

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